Troy-Albany Trance-Formations

I’ve got a lot of thoughts today.  Interesting to have a period of listlessness and then all of a sudden I feel there’s a web that has woven itself around my thinker.  See if I can follow some threads into coherence.

A couple of weeks ago, I did a self-point cleansing and was told to read the Turquoise information in Don Beck’s Spiral Dynamics.  That very day, I saw that my self point, which had been a pale yellow for years, was shifting to that color.  It spontaneously made the Passion point shift to a rich red-plum color, Pride to a Goldenrod Throne (!), Power turned into a deep maroon alternating with forest green and sex which was blue before, deepened into a gorgeous cobalt blue.

I’m getting a bit of tutoring right now in this newish turquoise self emerging.  Contrary to Beckian notions, this color is not authoritarian, though authoritative elements exist.  And turquoise seeks to bring resilience to bear on the world right now.

I looked up the word in the dictionary:  “the ability to recover from or adapt to misfortune.”  Yep.  I see that resilience operates on several levels at once.  Yesterday I surfed over to doomers.us and saw there was a forum on Dmitry Orlov’s presentation “Defincialisation, Deglobalisation, Relocalisation.”  Some obstinate fellow groused about him and Carolyn Baker because of their emphasis on the psychological elements of getting through this.  I felt sad for the clod who wrote that idea.  I doubt he’s going to have a life anyone will want. 

It did spark an interesting discussion about the body however and its relation to the psychological.  The clod said something about Orlov and Baker contradicting themselves about flexibility and rigidity.  (Made me think of Ron Weasley’s narrow views about emotions and Hermione’s response “Oh,  Ron you have the emotional range of a teaspoon.”)  There are parts of the body that need flexibility, such as the lungs.  But there are parts like the skeleton that have certain hardness requirements as well.  Similarly with the psyche.

I’m also thinking of the martial arts where flexibility and suppleness are recognized as important elements of strength.  There is a lot of talk about the tree that can bend with the wind surviving a storm, while the sturdy rooted one can get uprooted.  One must be able to adapt.

Weakness then can try to hide beneath a fierce show of power.  But in the martial arts, to be able to put power into the brush of a finger and cause someone’s death–what do you say to the fine art of subtlety?  It’s like in chess, when there is a “quiet move.”  I’ve been able to end at least one game with a very quiet maneuver that opened up … well, devastation for the other side.  (mwah-ah-ah-ah-ahhhh!)

It is interesting to be studying this line of witchcraft though, which models itself on martial arts amidst other things.  And yet we don’t seek to throw anything out.  While we don’t coddle weakness, neither do we throw things away.  Huna talks about complexes in the unihipili or child self.  We transform these complexes with attention, intention and request for divine assistance.  Acknowledging our full selves is both an act of humility and pride.  When I encounter a weakness in myself–such as a resentment I might feel toward someone else–I seek to tease apart the weakness from the mesh of complexes that I encounter in myself, and to transform it with the assistance of the Star Goddess.

(Who I’m seeing more and more as the dark energy/dark matter matrix from which all things emerge. This will probably be the subject oof a later post.)

So I try and not nurse my weaknesses.  It might be difficult to convince me that something I’m attached to is a weakness, or is making me weak.  Some things I need no convincing of, and seek their transformation “in Goddess’ time.” 

Yet resilience and nurturance of strength and capacity are a part of the work of this God.  Huzzah!